For the life of me I can't decide if I want to keep blogging or not.
I haven't posted since August (ish??), but believe me when I say I have tried. I currently have 19 half or almost finished posts that seem too forced, too fake or too unnecessary.
I sometimes feel like if I started posting again it would be met with a whole lot of judgement about leaving and coming back, especially since I see people plan weddings and have babies all without missing a scheduled post.
I'm over here struggling to write 1 or 2 a week. So I stopped. But now I have something on my mind, that I feel as though I need to put out there or else I won't be true to me or true to the people who feel the same way I do.
Tomorrow (January 31st, 2018) is #BellLetsTalk day. For every tweet with the hashtag, Facebook/ Snapchat frame used, text message sent and minute on a phone call, Bell will donate 5 cents to mental health initiatives around Canada. This is FANTASTIC and I can honestly say it is the one day a year I am proud to be with Bell.
My concern is that people go ALL OUT for this one day a year. They tweet, text, post and promote mental health as though their lives depend on it.
But some people's lives do.
I am lucky enough to have my mental illness (GAD, PD & Depression) under control 90% of the time. I know that through a combination of exercise, medication, therapy and getting enough sleep I can function at full capacity. But that is a 24/7/365 effort. I can't look after myself for one day and expect to be fine for the rest of the year.
So I don't understand why promoting mental health initiatives can be acceptable for one day of the year and then ignore them for the rest of the time?
Tweeting about acceptance is wonderful, but why don't we try really being accepting?
Why don't we text a friend we know is struggling on a snowy day in February when they might be feeling extra down?
Why not meet someone for a walk one day in the middle of August?
Why not give someone a call on a September day when they cross your mind?
Why not refrain from making comments about how someone looks when it might have been all they could do to get out of bed one day?
Why not just accept people are the way they are and when they try to talk about their mental illness don't say "not this again"
Why not try to comfort someone when they're spiralling instead of calling them depressing when they leave the room?
(It may quite literally be the depression)
Ending the stigma around mental health requires more than one day of activism. It requires dedication, dead ends, perseverance and passion. It requires people putting in the effort, sending the tweet and standing up for people who are ashamed to stand up for themselves day after day.
All in all, #BellLetsTalk is a GREAT initiative. I am so proud of the strides our communities have made throughout mental health and addictions, I just believe it needs to be more consistent.
So text, tweet and post all you can tomorrow!
Then keep talking about it.