I did something really exciting last night !! I followed through on one of my 5 goals for being more accomplished and basically just finding ways to make my own happiness.
I found a writing class. And what's more, I loved it. I went in hoping to have a couple hours to just sit and write the world's next worst seller but what I got was so. Much. Better.
We went in and once we got acquainted we had 5 minutes to write any words we could think of that start with the letter M. Then anything we could think of that was red. What was interesting though was that our teacher made sure we knew it didn't have to be serious like "apple, fire truck, strawberry". Immediately what came to mind for me was "red sky at night, sailors delight. Red sky at morning, sailors take warning" so for me, red meant both delight and foreboding. Realizing that a color can mean such different, strong words to me really opened my eyes. It was such a lovely experience and really forced me to analyze the way I write and share with people who may not write the way I do, but have very valuable feed back.
Other than that, Matthew and I celebrated 18 months this weekend! I am well aware that 18 months is not an anniversary but it is so easy to take someone who is in your life every day for granted and I really am so appreciative of everything Matt does for me, so it was nice to simply acknowledge the day and take note of how far we have come and how much we have to look forward too!!
This week I have fought tooth and nail (literally) to get over a fear ingrained in me for as long as I can remember. When I moved out on my own, basically the only situation I over exerted my freedom was with the dentist. I am petrified of the dentist. I would rather almost anything than have someone rooting around in my mouth, poking and prodding. However, due to a poorly done filling from way back when I have now been to the dentist twice in the past three days with another appointment on Friday. With a referral to the Root Canal specialist AND the oral surgeon for my wisdom teeth removal.
Yes. It's going well. Dentist - 3 ; Jayne - 0
Luckily I have gotten in with Matthew's dentist, who happened to live next door to him when he was a little boy and doesn't mind spilling some cute stories to help the time pass faster!
What I am trying really hard to learn is that life is never easy. It will never be effortless to be happy or content - it's a never ending battle. I think people get confused when they think about happiness and look at it as a destination, as oppose to a direction. There will always be setbacks to happiness (dentist) but they usually are followed by something greater.