Thursday, April 27, 2017

Five Dreams

Really getting into this blog has been something I've been meaning to do for so long, something I think about all the time and just really needed some motivation or a push to get it done. Getting back into it has really made me think about what other consistent ideas I want to pursue and they are ... 

1) CREATIVE WRITING CLASSES: If you read my about me page, you'll see that I have loved writing since I was a little girl. English was always my best subject in school, I always enjoyed it and I write so much in my spare time. I think if I could find classes to work on my writing it would bring me so much satisfaction to have someone read my work and provide feedback. If anyone knows of classes like this, HMU. 

2) STAND UP COMEDY: for those of you who don't know me IRL, I am really funny. I have been listening to so many podcasts lately of stand up comedians and I think they are all so brave, funny and smart. I think its a place I would really enjoy. If anyone knows of any comedy lessons in the city, HMU. 

(surprise, this is just a blog for you all to HMU) 

(They are hilarious, find their website here)

3) HORSEBACK RIDING LESSONS: My mom is going to get so mad for me telling this story, but when I was a little girl I wanted to take horseback riding lessons, but I had already enrolled in voice lessons and I didn't have time for both. 

Ask me if I got over it. 

Seriously, ask me.

(this is what I look like when I am living my best life)

4) RUNNING: Maybe writing this in a blog will help hold me accountable, but I need to get back into the gym/ running. It keeps my head on straight honestly, and helps me process things with a clear head. I think keeping a healthy body is essential with keeping a healthy mind. My mind isn't always the healthiest so I think staying physically healthy is imperative for me 
(ew, sorry for getting serious on you all) 

Finally, my most far-fetched: 
5) START A DOG HOTEL: I need to do it. My dream is to make so much money I can quit my day job and run a doggy hotel/ day care/ foster centre where people can come and leave their dog for as long as they need. Going through a hard time? That's fine, I'll dog sit for a year. Going on vacation? That's cool, I got your dog. Working all day? I'll take care of them. Stray? Not anymore. 

Just imagine being surrounded by little puppers all day!!!

I think if I complete these five things, I'll be pretty dang happy.

Wednesday, April 26, 2017

My Space in the World.

If you look back to a post from a couple of days ago, I talked about how much I moved around in the past little while. 
 To be quite honest, I haven't felt like I had a home in a really long time. While my parents lived in the same home that I grew up in, my life was in the place that I was going to university. I was in a place of limbo in my life, moving from dorms and apartments, houses. 

(lucky for me, where ever I am with these two is home enough for me) 

Yesterday, I found out that I had passed all my courses, which means I am eligible to graduate in May!! With this knowledge, and a wonderful apartment with my Momma, I felt that it was finally time to make a place mine, somewhere I was to be. Somewhere I can stick around and enjoy being. Really feel comfortable, feel like I can be inspired. 

Welcome to Caffeine and Big Dreams headquarters!! 

I am so excited!! I went on a little shopping binge yesterday to my fave store (Dollarama, lets not kid ourselves) and got so many fun things!! 

I made a dream board: 

(I know how cheesy it is, doesn't mean I love it any less) 

Bought some flowers for ambiance: 

Finally found a home for this guy who has followed me around for a couple moves: 

Most importantly, I found a place where I can sit and write and feel comfortable in myself not being in anyones way or making too much noise. It's a really nice feeling, and I hope you enjoyed my first post from here!! Hopefully there are many more where that came from! 

We're over hump day people!! Almost the weekend ! 

Tuesday, April 25, 2017

Waves and Pans and Iceberg's, oh my!

Not to toot my own horn, but three posts have been put up consistently. I don't wanna say I am back, but I am back. I hope. 

So, before I get too excited this is going to be a pretty picture heavy post because :

a) I actually remembered to take my camera so the pics aren't grainy and distorted 


b) Yesterday was too pretty of a day to not go crazy with being outdoors and taking pics! 

Mom, Matt and I went to Ferryland to see all the icebergs and they lived up to the hype!! 

(the iceberg is to the right of Matt's head!) 

We had to hike about 10 minutes up a muddy path to get the best view, but it was such a lovely day almost 10 degrees !!!!! 

Living in Newfoundland, you really have to embrace the nice weather as soon as it happens! Which is what we did yesterday! After spending some time on the beach, we headed back home, but there is nothing like finally getting outside after a long winter! 

Lets hope this is the beginning of the end of winter!

Monday, April 24, 2017

Thank you, Thank you!!


Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine that my post would receive the warm response that it has!!! Thank you all so much for your kind comments, texts and messages. So many people reached out (excitingly even people I don't know!!!!), so thank you, thank you, thank you!! 

Frig. So I spent most of the weekend looking at the response to my blog and saying to whoever will listen "people are actually reading!! Guess who read it!!" but aside from that I had a pretty good, if uneventful weekend. 

After I got off work Friday, Mom and I went to our fave restaurant for our usual meal of spinach dip and tasters platter at Big's! I've never met a spinach dip I didn't like and consistency is key with me. The only thing scarier than trying a new restaurant is finding out the new restaurant is actually good and I've been missing out. 

After that we came home and tried to watch Riverdale of which there was no new episode this week.. Seriously not impressed. 

(My face when theres no new Riverdale) 

Saturday Matt and I went and got Sushi for lunch!! Something I have recently acquired a taste for and the lunch buffet at Sushi Island always delivers. Their staff is always so warm and welcoming, even asking why our third person wasnt with us, since Matt, Dustin and I are the usual sushi group. 

(seaweed salad!!) 

After that - I went and test drove a car!! It is a little early, but I am trying to figure out what the estimates will be, how much it will cost and what I will be expected to pay once I am ready to make the final step. I am leaning towards a Mini-Cooper now, but seriously if anyone has any tips or tricks for buying a car please reach out!!! 

Saturday evening we went to an Ice Caps game! While I don't follow them avidly I always try to watch a game or two a year and they were playing the Syracuse Crunch, Tampa Bay's farm team! The game ended up going to double overtime so it was a nail-biter, after two goals were called off (one per team) the Crunch pulled it off. As a Tampa fan, I had to keep my cheering to a minimum if I didn't want to start a riot!

(Date Night ♡) 

Today was very exciting as Matt's great-grandmother had her 95th birthday party!! It was so special to meet a lot of his extended family that I haven't had a chance to meet. Watching his great grandmother get a picture with all of her great-grandchildren was so heartwarming and such a wonderful thing that I was so lucky to get to watch. Needless to say, I am dating a man with very good genes! 

Anyway friends, that about wraps up my weekend. I haven't had a chance to Keep up with the Kardashians yet, and that could take up more than one post so I guess this is a good place to leave off! 

Thank you from the bottom of my heart to everyone that took the time to read Fridays post, and now this one. It is such an amazing feeling to feel the love and support from everyone. It is appreciated more than any of you know. 

Here's a picture of Cuba to start your week off with a smile! Follow me on snapchat to see pics like this regularly: jaynehamlyn 

Friday, April 21, 2017

Forgive me?

Hi strangers! 

Remember me? No? Okay .. Fair enough. 

Remember when I said I didn't feel as though I was in the right frame of mind to blog and I didn't want this to become a place for me to just gripe and complain? Extend that by an extra year and basically, that will explain my absence. 

In the past 15 months, I have lost a dear family member, ended up in the hospital for a super bad infection, moved, then moved again, was in an awful situation that landed me back in the hospital for a semi- mental breakdown (not fun, all the love to my partner for getting me through this), worked two full time jobs and went to school, moved AGAIN to get out of the awful situation (not my choice to move again, but was easily the push I needed to start me on my road to recovery), lost track of where I was headed, lived alone, and finally, finally moved into my wonderful apartment where I live now with my pupper and sweet Momma. 

That is a very condensed version of what has been going on. I couldn't process it fully while I was going through it honestly, and while it was the hardest time of my life, I can look back now and see that I am surrounded by some pretty amazing people that have never made me feel like a burden or like I was crazy for how I was handling everything (spoiler, I wasn't). 

Flash forward to now: 
I have finished my degree  (fingers crossed, grades aren't out yet) and am in the process of finding a career. In my new found wisdom I am trying to look at it this way, not in trying to find a job but by trying to find a place that will help me grow, a place that will become a home and I can put some roots down. 

(celebratory supper Matt took me out for! 10/10 would recommend Fifth Ticket)

I am in a relationship with the most wonderful man. Seriously, see that blurb above about what the past while has been? We started dating roughly two months before that and he stuck by through it all. Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine I would find someone that gives me the support and faith he does.

(the handsome man,himself. Huge thanks to Ethan Bickford for our photos!)

I have some of the best friends I could ever imagine. While I may not have as many friends as I did as a teenager, and we might not talk every day, I have some of the most solid people I could imagine having. They are always there when I need someone to talk too, when I need advice or when I just need a drink. They don't make me feel guilty or lesser than I am, and it took me a long time to realize that that is the making of a real friend.


I have a mental illness. While I knew this before, the past year I have really worked on getting it under control. I know what/ who my triggers are and work to avoid situations that might inflame my anxiety. I see a counselor who helps me remain present and stay in the moment, helps me work through issues and see all sides. I am no longer ashamed of it. It is a part of who I am and while it gives me personality quirks that I may not love, it makes me, me and how could I be ashamed of that? 

So, if you don't want to read anymore - fair enough! I'm a little less people pleasey and a lot more sassy than I used to be, because I am unapologetically myself. I want to blog and I want to be here, but I am not hiding anymore.